Programing

My internal programing is what most would refer to as not normal. I seek to rebel, love to love and prefer to be surrounded or indulged in dysfunction. Just recently i decided that I'm going to stop settling for the love I think I deserve and set my sights on the love I actually do deserve. I'm not searching for someone, I'm praying for someone who's searching for me. Instead of being the one doing all the work, I want someone to meet me halfway. Sorta like I don't know a real relationship. Needless to say, I'm doing my best to rewire my internal programing and start settling for not better, but best.